Thursday, December 2, 2010

A Real Pain in My Neck

Tonight sucks. I had a headache all day today that I couldn't get rid of. Then my shoulders and neck started to hurt. I took my migraine medication and that took care of the headache. I haven't been in this much pain since October. It's frustrating. I came home from work and did traction. It helped some, but not much. my friends at my last job gave me a gift certificate for a one hour massage and I just so happen to have that scheduled to morrow. I cannot wait until 11am tomorrow. I hope it helps. I guess I've felt good for a few months now so I took that for granted. This is who I am now. Pain is always going to be a real part of my life. I have to realize that I'll have good days AND bad days. Today just happens to be a BAD day. It just sucks. It came on so quick without any warning. The intensity is what shocks me the most. It feels like I have a 100 pounds on my shoulders. Laying down doesn't help. Sitting doesn't help. My stretches don't help.

If you're still reading this, I'm sorry for the self pity party. I needed to get all of this out of my head without whining at Gabe. I whined for so long this summer I can't do it to him again. He's already done so much.

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Lord, please give me the strength to make it through the tough times. Tonight I need Your wisdom to help deal with the pain. I know that I can make it through anything with You by my side. Amen.

2 comments:

The Big Blue Frog said...

I have osteoporosis in my sacrum. It's been nearly four years that I've been dealing with round the clock pain. I take Cymbalta & Lyrica for nerve pain, Tramadol and Lortab for general pain control and Meloxicam for inflammation. Once a week I take a bisphosphonate called Fosamax to build the bone. I've been passed around from doctor to doctor until they finally decided that they we all stumped, so they passed me off to a pain management specialist: basically they decided to keep me numb until something either happens or doesn't.

Pain sucks. I'm right there with you.

Silicon Valley Diva said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you have chronic pain. I hope your pain can ease somewhat in the coming hours. Big prayers going out to you!