Tonight sucks. I had a headache all day today that I couldn't get rid of. Then my shoulders and neck started to hurt. I took my migraine medication and that took care of the headache. I haven't been in this much pain since October. It's frustrating. I came home from work and did traction. It helped some, but not much. my friends at my last job gave me a gift certificate for a one hour massage and I just so happen to have that scheduled to morrow. I cannot wait until 11am tomorrow. I hope it helps. I guess I've felt good for a few months now so I took that for granted. This is who I am now. Pain is always going to be a real part of my life. I have to realize that I'll have good days AND bad days. Today just happens to be a BAD day. It just sucks. It came on so quick without any warning. The intensity is what shocks me the most. It feels like I have a 100 pounds on my shoulders. Laying down doesn't help. Sitting doesn't help. My stretches don't help.
If you're still reading this, I'm sorry for the self pity party. I needed to get all of this out of my head without whining at Gabe. I whined for so long this summer I can't do it to him again. He's already done so much.
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Lord, please give me the strength to make it through the tough times. Tonight I need Your wisdom to help deal with the pain. I know that I can make it through anything with You by my side. Amen.
